I wanted to create this but I am lazy.. But finally I did

I always wanted to write down my thoughts somewhere so that I can remember what I have think before so that I can remember it when I wanted to refer back. And finally I did.

Thoughts...
Thoughts are the most important thing in life I guess. I have thoughts about my life every morning, and think what I wanted to achieve in life. This determine my direction in life, and makes me do the necessary things everyday to achieve it But some times,my thoughts are in real mess. I can be giving thoughts about certain things at one moment, yet be thinking about other thing within a split second. I really need to change. I need to have a organised way of thinking, or else all thoughts are not deep, it is just a flash of idea and not merely thinking thru! Yes, I really need to change! Change is necessary if it is for the better!

26th may...
4 days have passed, I am 25yrs and 4 days old. Time really flies. Life in getting tougher, as I am in charge and responsible for all my thoughts and actions that I have taken. Sometimes I feel like crying. But I didn't. Maybe I just need a listening ear? Or even some where that I can express myself. I think I am great. All things that I have achieve or done till today are not pure luck. I think I work hard to get it. Sometimes when I compare myself with some of the other classmates or friends, I think that they are really lucky. Its seems easy for them to achieve who they are or what they have today. Maybe because I didn't plan when I am young, like when I am in primary sch? Thus now, this is the harder path that I have to go thu? Maybe? But I am not afraid of hardship. I am able to take it. I am only scare that I am not smart to tackle hard life. I realized that in life, I got to work smarter not harder. But do not forget hardworking do take an important role. I am stupid that when I am 17 0r 20 like that, I always think that by working hard all my life, I will succeed. This is not totally true. Beside hardwork, I need luck, network and most importantly smartness to succeed in life. So I got to change!

Mature thoughts?
Its really tough to work & work, and no one to share you joy or sorrow. At this point, 25yrs old.,I think beside dashing and chasing after my goal in life, I need someone who I love to share this journey. I need a girl friend. Someone who I can commit my time to, someone who I can love and treasure, someone who I can talk to. What the point of chasing goal in life, yet there is no one you can share with? Wait! What's the matter with me? Am I too choosy or am I too flirtish, or am I not consistent? Is it that every nice girls that I have met, I want to go out with. Maybe ppl see me as flirtish? Or because I am not consistent? I think I need to make up my mind which girl I like. I think if I continue doing what I am doing now, I will not get a girlfriend eventually. I need to sort up my thoughts, need to be more decisive in making choices. Then go for it. Or else, things cannot be done. And I will still be lonely for the next 5 yrs. So I stead of having lunch or dinner alone, ask friends out, either male or female. Get socialised, widen your social circle, and you will find one. A friend is just an SMS away. If they didn't reply, so be it, don't get too upset or disappointed, try again for another diff friend next time.

I think I am inconsistence in life. I need to change. I am indecisive, I need to change. I am slow in doing things, I need to change! I want a better life!

nite.