After 30 days of working...

My energy seems to burn out. I have think and worked hard for my next phase of 2005. I had set up my business site, but it seems that business are going unsmoothly. I need money, cash to substant my expenditure in UNI. My life is hard, because I am not born lucky. It seems that I need to work hard in all my life. But I do not believe in fate. My destination is in my hands! I will be successful one day.

Days seems to fly. Every day, just passes. I think I have not achieved much working in LRUI, although I had gained good 3D skills. This skills will not get me any further. This is not the kind of life I am going to lead for the rest of my life. Meeting client, securing account, thinking business strategy are the kind of work I am excited about. Not just plane draught men & simple designing work. This kind of work is wasting my time. I have bigger goals in life, and I will not be a designer. I want to be a thinker, a millionaire businessmen & design-preneur! I must change. Adopt new working methods. Brian, you are no longer a designer! Re think! Do things everyday that will make you achieve your long term goal.

I am lonely. I need a girl friend, who I can talk to and share our thoughts in life. I seem to be the one outcast. My peers are going to have a wife soon. And all the nice and beautiful girl out there will be taken if I don't do anything. Challenge yourself, you can do it. Dun be too fussy. No one is perfect, including myself. Change your perception.

I have been working like a bull. I need rest. I will give myself 2 weeks break.